Calliope - Muse of Epic Poetry

This Halloween my friend Saby and I are each going to be one of the 9 muses. My choice is Calliope.

I find my choice ironic since I no longer write poetry. And none of my poems have ever been close to "epic." But when I was 16 I wanted to be a writer.... a poet, and that was really the only muse that I seemed to relate to. So my Calliope in my head is a white dress... green hair & make-up, a leaf halo, a green sash, and a notebook & pen. This is the first costume that I have ever had to put together so it has been nerve recking. I'll try to remember to post pictures of how it all turns out.

It is sad to think back about the passion I had for writing... and how I just let it go. I gave up on writing because I was scared. I am someone who writes from the heart... so putting my heart out there for everyone to read was terrifying for me. I didn't want people judging me and lowering my self-esteem any more than where it is at. So my plan was to go into accounting and continue to write on the side.... but for my eyes only.

The problem is that... I have not been able to write anything really since I moved to Lawrence.

I have been trying to write a book.... but for some reason I can't seem to get the 1st chapter the way I want it. My preface is perfect.... and I fear that that's the only thing I will ever finish of it:(

"See, I refuse to believe that my life's gonna be just some string of incompletes."
- John Mayer

It is funny when you have everything you want to say in your head.... but it just doesn't seem to come out right on paper. And I use to be so good with words....

"Just say what you need to say"
- John Mayer

I wish it was that easy John. *sighs*

~Jet~