if you only knew.... me

Test my friendship, I will not leave your side. Push me away, I will come back fighting for you stronger than ever.

I want to be here for you. I want you to see that.... see the type of person that I am. I am here to listen to you.... use me and throw me overboard like the jettison that I am. Jettison is the nickname I give myself. So often people come in and out of our lives. Although I do have friends that I have known all my life... most of the people that I know now I did not know 5 years ago. And I have my doubts that I will still know them 5 years from now.

I have come to accept the fact that people "lose touch." It just happens... it is never planned. Life just gets busy and before you know it... the weeks become years.

So... for this moment in time that I do know you.... let me help. Let me be the one to carry you when you fall. Let me to the shoulder to cry on. Let me be that friend that you can count on... the one you can call in the middle of the night.

Most people will never take the time to understand me and listen to the story of my life. But I am telling you that I AM HERE!! I want to hear your story.... if you want to tell me it.

~Jet~

can you meet me halfway - i cant go any further then this

I was listening to this song today... I guess it is by the Black Eyed Peas. It's called "meet me halfway." It think it is about someone in a relationship just wanting the other person to put in some effort into the relationship to make it work.


When I was listening to this song.... the first person I thought about was my cousin. I want to so bad just scream to her "CAN YOU MEET ME HALFWAY?"

I flew more than halfway and she can't find the time to drive out to see me. Seriously?? We were so close growing up she was more like a sister to me instead of a cousin. She is mad at me for not visiting her mom on Sunday... at least I think that is why. Really? I get lost in Kansas and she expects me to find my way around out here. Mapquest can't even help me here. There are far too many freeways and one way streets.

I know how to get to the valley and I know my way around the valley... but other than that I am like a deer in headlights. I have decided that I am done driving to people for this trip. If anyone wants to see me they can drive here to my sister's house. If my cousin wants to be mad at me so be it. My sister has not moved so she should know how to drive out here.

My plans for the remainder of my trip? Tomorrow... Universal Studios. Wednesday I am not sure but I kinda want to see the ocean. So I was thinking of just driving out there by myself I guess. And then later that day I have dinner with my brother's in-laws.. that should be awkward and nice all at the same time. Thursday I am suppose to spend the day with my sister... but she is not sure if she will have the day off after all... so I might do another solo adventure. And Friday I pack and leave.

I hope to buy most of my souvenirs for my friends tomorrow.

~Jet~

thomas the train is fun!!

I am not sure what this blog is about really. It's been a while since I have been on vacation. haha, I am still on vacation actually... til Friday.

But, it feels like it has been forever.... so why not blog. Umm... people have already been asking me what I have done since I have been out here. I suppose they expect me to say that I went on this big adventure or something. But when I say to them that I spent the whole day playing Thomas the Train with my nephew.... they look at me like I am crazy.

Yes, I took off 2 weeks of work and flew out here to play with my nephew or go shopping with my nieces'.... or go to the movies with my sister... drink with my brother. People really just have no idea how much I missed my family. I mean its hard not feeling like you are a part of their lives. It hurts when your nephew doesn't remember you from the last time you saw him. Doing everyday things right now means the world to me because I am doing them with my family. And I know its gonna be hard this time around to say goodbye. But I will see them again this coming June for my niece's graduation... ... ....

I feel old now. haha. I turn 25 in Dec. I never thought I would be this old and still not know who I am. Shoot, I don't even know where I am going to be living next year:( Ok.... I am gonna try not to think about it right now.... I am still on vacation. I'll post again soon.

~Jet~