back in an old habit

So, it's been a while since I last blogged. I recently just came back from my trip to Chicago. That town is bigger than I could have ever imagined. I will upload pictures on facebook soon!! It will just take me a while seeing as I almost took 400 pictures.

Yes, I know I go photo crazy. But, it was a new town. I really want to go back to Chicago sometime soon. But, I just realized that there is so much of Kansas that I have yet to see. So, I might just try to explore this state some more first.

I also realized that even though I am still very drawn to Chicago for some reason.... I do not think it is a town I can see myself living in. It is too busy for me and not really the kind of busy I'm use to.

Andrew and I have decided to do another year on the lease. So starting in July will be our 3rd year. I love living with him... but a part of me can't help but think that I am still just playing it safe. We will see what the year has to offer.

I feel like I have been distant from the people in my life. I don't hardly go out anymore... and I've been pushing people away.... not sure exactly why.

But, since I have been spending a lot of time by myself... I've been doing some writing. I am still stuck on chapter one of my book. Not sure if I was just reaching too big or what.... but my preface is amazing!! lol. I have been writing some poems. I have been doing a lot of editing of older work and I have written 3 new ones. I admit I am shy to post things online. But... I am work on a notebook to send to my sister.

My sister is the only person that has read every poem I've written. She somehow never seems to be annoyed with the dark topics I cover at times. She really just helps me try to grow as a writer. So every couple of years or so I send her a notebook with new poems and then she sends it back to me.... with notes, comments, and suggestions.

It's kind of awesome!

~Jet~