the waiting game

So... I thought next year was all figured out. And then.... my roomie Andrew threw me a curve ball. He has a job opportunity in Phoenix. The way he talks about it.... he acts like he already has the job. It has been stressing me out.

If he moves... what do I do? Where do I live?

I have been nothing but supportive of Andrew chasing his dreams. I love him and he is one of my closest friends out here in Lawrence. I try to hide how stressed I really am. But, to be honest.... I think if I weren't writing this now, the stress would probably kill me.

I tell Andrew not to worry because worst comes to worst I can always move back in with my parents... but honestly who really wants to do that?

My job is out here in Lawrence... so it would make sense to try to find a place out here. Yet, I'm not sure I can find another roommate:( And honestly... I'm scared to live by myself.

I know Kansas is not California... but the things I went through while I was in California.... will probably haunt me for the rest of my life. So... living alone would be out of the question. Right now it's just the waiting game... we have to wait to see if he gets the job. If he doesn't get it... no big deal... all this stress will be for nothing. But if he does get it... then... then I have to figure out a place to live. *sighs*

This whole thing just stinks because I want him to get the job... but I don't want him to leave:(

~Jet~